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charlax 71, Male, Arizona, USA - 744 entries

Jan 2014
12:43 PM EDT

INcan BLinkin DInkin

�INcan BLinkin DInkin

2014 means the calendar event of the end of the INcan world was incorrect

they stopped seeing events

we are safe from those Peruvians

just found a picture of a white cow in a blizzard eating snow

it was in a mosaic fruit jar on an INcan porch

wrapped in bay leaf to keep it fresh vegeterian style

they were blinded by the white BLinkin from the site

world war three will soon begin in 3500 is the end

DInkin INdians missed the period of time

they got the millennium mixed up with the fourth dimensional shift

perhaps the rotation of your yellow sun caused them to miss the drift

the age is upon us our descendants will fight the final conflict

that battle will result in the final Judgement

Mabus is kind of Neat for those who stufy will find it repast is sweet

unleavened with money for gas and oil is mixed with blood and sand

turn the time back for every INcan hand

the clock is BLinkin

eye am DInkin

INcan BLinkin DInkin

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martytx07 37, Male, Texas, USA - 53 entries

Feb 2014
10:18 AM CDT

Just an update

Wow...I didn't know it had been so long since I last updated! Well I think a lot has happened since my last entry. I am now working at the Mesquite center. I actually like it a lot. I am the CSA...I'm not even sure what my position was during my last entry. Dang I need to start typing in this thing more. I think it's amazing to just go back and read what you wrote before. Well anyways, let's see...I am working in Mesquite as the CSA...I have been the CSA for a while now actually but just transferred to Mesquite on the 27th of January I believe. I like it a lot...it's so much nicer and the employees there are so much more well behaved....well most of them. I'm sure there's going to be a couple that are going to deviate from the proper procedure but we just need to nip it in the butt to be honest. My sister had her baby in August. She's adorable. Little fat thing. Turtle just got a promotion so I'm proud of him for that. It's gonna be good that he makes more money now that he has a daughter he will have to provide for. Well I won't say much more here because I'm starving and need to get ready so I can go great breakfast with my sister and the baby probably.

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2Dazed 58, Female, Arizona, USA - 2 entries

Feb 2014
10:03 AM MST

Significant Illusion

Have you ever found yourself in a situation that you weren't sure if you could escape it completely, at least on an emotional level?� What are the steps needed to break that bond when it is one that you allowed to happen?� What if you truly know those steps already and yet, your heart is in a massive tug-of-war with your mind, then what?

Tags: Heart, Love, Relationships

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2Dazed 58, Female, Arizona, USA - 2 entries

Feb 2014
5:23 PM MST

Unauthorized Expectation

On Friday, Valentine's Day, a very dear friend of mine made me face the truth, something that I have been denying or flat out ignoring for over a year now.� First off, this friend and I are not intimate.� We have known each other for quite a few months, but only recently started hanging out.� The truth that he made me face was an arrangement that I currently have with another friend, a room-mate.� Our arrangement has been going on for well over a year and it is something that my new friend wants very much to take the room-mate's place in the intimate department.

The arrangement that we have really does not exist.� Occasionally we have sex and may end up at a club together, but that's all it is.� When we are at a club, he will acknowledge me to a point, and yet do his best to maintain the distance, our secret, I am his dirty little secret.� When his family or friends are around, I am pretty much ignored, in fact there could be someone sitting on the couch that I do not know and he won't even introduce me to them.... that is how much of a dirty little secret I am.� Not worth mentioning.

The new friend said in no uncertain terms that he, the roomie, does not see me as a person, a woman or someone who has feelings.� I am merely seen as an opportunity to have sex when it is needed.

The part that hurts in all this is that I put my desired expectations on the roomie without his knowledge.� I wasn't looking for a relationship, and yet, I wanted to feel acknowledged for something more than just sex.� I didn't think it was that big of an issue if he would personally invite me out somewhere on occasion, sit next to me on the couch to watch a movie without it having a condition of sex, to have sex and wake up next to each other in the same bed, not for him to get up and leave the moment we were done.� In all honesty, it makes me feel somewhat like a slut or prostitute, the only thing missing is money left on a dresser or nightstand.

And yet, knowing that I don't really matter to him, knowing that I am not worth his time and effort, wanting so much to be seen for me, I have allowed him to take a piece of my heart, I am in love with this man and I don't know how to just end it, put a stop to this arrangement.

Tags: denial, heart, love, relationship

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charlax 71, Male, Arizona, USA - 744 entries

May 2014
12:02 PM EDT

The Dragonfly has a Birthday

�The Dragonfly has a Birthday

The Dragonfly has a Birthday

April Twenty Four for NPM poetry

her smile lights in my heart

she calls to �me at times

she flutters her wings in love she makes me sing my love is secret but not disguised

she is a warrior and she is the world

she is unconcerned with petty theft

she makes me happy and never sad

she is my thrift and all my worth

on this day in May the dragonfly will play

and MAY she think of me this April Day

my Indian my love my wings my calling dove

will always answer with love

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ipohraj 64, Male, Malaysia - 16 entries

Jun 2014
1:41 AM +08

14-06-14

today is 14-0614 and almost only 5.5 months only to complete 2014.
TODAY STARTED GURU PEYARCHI AND MAY BE GOOD THINGS WILL
COMES OUT FOR MY BUSINESS LINE. TAKEN TOTO FOR RM 120 AND
EXPECTING GET NUMBERS IN THE LIST.

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HannahL 34, Female, United Kingdom - 33 entries

Jun 2014
6:03 AM BST

Dodgy characters

Had a shoot today with a wedding photographer/filmmaker which I had to cancel not only wasting my time but the filmmakers' time. I had a look at his work and was so impressed with it as it was really good quality with lots of attention to detail, and plenty of good reviews.

I met him once before as he wanted to see if I was suitable for the role and to discuss the project but it just ended up feeling more like a date! He took me to a restaurant and ordered lots of things (I thought we were going to discuss ideas and sick to talking about photography). I felt uncomfortable at his gestures and his cheeky comments but I ignored it, laughed it off and was calm.� I thought maybe I was getting the wrong impression and I didn't want to say anything as I didn't want to be rude!

Today I was supposed to see him to do a test shoot but then he started being cheeky again. Bang out of order. I'm sick of people trying to flirt with you and be all cheeky - you are married I am in a relationship. Why would you do that?

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WENDYWITCH 58, Female, California, USA - 5 entries

Jun 2014
4:01 PM PDT

Do we Let go of the Past, forgive and forget? Or are we doomed to repeat the same mistakes if we do not remember the past? Is there some kinda of compromise, meeting in the middle that allows us to move on, yet not make same mistakes? What is the.real answer, can u do both?

Tags: forgive, learning, letting go, mistakes, past

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construcgrl 40, Female, Minnesota, USA - 5 entries

Aug 2014
10:06 AM

I headed out to the food truck fair last weekend and it was amazing. The food was great and the weather was even better. I couldn't get enough of these lobster tacos that I got, and I event purchased some broccoli mac and cheese. The good news is that my friend was working one of the food trucks and gave me the skinny on cleanliness. When you think of food trucks you don't usually think clean, but they all had to have these portable sinks like this one.

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Ranilyn 31, Female, Canada - 26 entries

Sep 2014
2:37 AM MDT

I'm so tired.
I don't know how to stop
I don't know how to keep going
I'm so tired
all the time

I want to sleep so bad
I need to sleep so bad
but
I really don't want to sleep and face tomorrow

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